Ok.. so i guess Liz has to get another surgery. this shit never ends i swear....

well last time they did an exploratory surgery b/c her scans and everything were clear but her cancer numbers went up after a while. and then they did surgery and found a bunch more little tumors. we didnt even think they'd find anything.. and it's like its happening all over again. this will be the third time getting tumors removed if they find any. its just.. i dont know its just not freakin fair. shes only 20.. and for the past year and a half her life has been tumors, chemo, cancer.... this should be the peak of her life. sure i know she's still out having fun with her friends and what not.. but it almost seems to me she does it for escape. that's her way with dealing with it: going out and partying. but then the reality just crashes all down on her again and shes gotta come back to her life of cancer.

And it seems to me it still really shakes up the family.. i still catch my mom with tears in her eyes and my dad's been actin real weird lately. just.. out of it. And yet at the same time its like we're all numb to it now. Trying to keep an upbeat attitude, hoping for a miracle, just trying to pray for one... its just still all so surreal.

So pray for Liz.. surgery is August 1st, she'll have to stay in the hospital for about 4 or 5 days after. i'm probably gonna be up there the whole time, but, whatever. Hopefully they won't find any more frickin tumors or cancer... but just pray for her. And thanks so much for everyone for always bein there.. uve got no idea how much it means or how much it helps.

Shoot for the moon.....

~margie~